It’s been one week since my daughter’s funeral “celebration of life”. It seems so unreal to me that she is gone. I have good days and bad days. Yesterday was a very bad day. I was at a family gathering to celebrate a wedding and I had to leave. I just became so overwhelmed with grief. You see, my daughter was suppose to be there with me. But, again my family supported me through it and came to my rescue.
God has continued to bring me blessings everyday since her death. I said to God in my prayers that I’ve so much hurt and pain in my life, I need to experience some good. I need something positive to happen to restore my value in life. Everyday he shows me that I am worthy and I am loved by him and he grants prayers.
The first prayer he granted:
- was my daughters passing. Yes, I asked “Lord, if you can’t bring her back to me as she was or better, to take her because she doesn’t deserve any more pain or seizures” – granted
- I get 3 days off for a death in family and had no time off available after, prayed for a way to take more time so I could still grieve yet not worry about my bills – granted
- I prayed for help with bills, guidance in what to do, prayed for people to be here for me and to keep me from going crazy – all granted
- I pray continually for more guidance as to what I should do next in my life, move back home or stay where I am – a work in progress
I am so blessed by the multitude of friends and family that came to my rescue. There are a few of them that I couldn’t have been able to get though without and they know who they are. God will be blessing them because of their blessings to me. I know that!
God Bless You All – hug your children, your family. You never know when they will be gone. Enjoy them everyday – even when they make you crazy.
until next time,