Essential Oils and Grief

For the next few weeks I’ll be discussing how essential oils can be helpful along the journey of grief. Incorporating essential oils is just one component of working through the healing process after loss. Journaling your thoughts and feelings is also a very component part of your journey and I would encourage you to write about your experience through this process should you decide to incorporate essential oils. There are many different types of oils to choose from; however I’m using Young Living Essential Oils because of the high quality and Seed-to-Seal promise. Not all essential oils are alike. Many on the market are not of high quality and won’t provide the results you are looking for AND you cannot be guaranteed it’s quality.

The experiences I write about below are based on my own experiences and may be different for you or someone you think may benefit from this because we are all uniquely different and experience grief differently.

My blog going forward will focus on how do we help ourselves through the various mediums available to us. There are so many options for us to use and create a customized plan to help navigate the muddy and sometimes unclear waters of grief. Many times I’ve written about the dark side of grief. But it’s time to help us move out of that, albeit slowly or at whatever pace you need and move to a place where we can enjoy the life we have and remember there is still much to do and experience in this life we have left.

I know for some this might seem like a stretch. But I know from experience that loss cannot nor should not define who you are. It is part of you, but not the definition of you. Please know I’m not a counselor. I’m not a therapist. What I am is an experienced griever who believes that we have two roads to choose when faced with heart-breaking loss: one of constant pain and sorrow or one of personal growth (still being able to honor your loved ones) that allow you to recognize, forgive and have inner peace with where you are now.

If you have any questions about these future posts, or the essential oils, please post them below and I’ll be happy to continue to dialog to support you in whatever ways I can. My hope is that you learn how to incorporate the oils below in your life today to create a space in your life for inner peace and forgiveness. This will allow you to honor and celebrate your loved ones who’ve passed AND; honor and celebrate you.

Feelings Kit

The Feelings™ collection from Young Living features six essential oil blends that inspire feelings of emotional well-being when diffused. Use in the morning and evening to promote peaceful thoughts and spiritual harmony.

The Feelings Collection Includes:

  • Harmony™, 5 ml
  • Forgiveness™, 5 ml
  • Inner Child™, 5 ml
  • Present Time™, 5 ml
  • Release™, 5ml
  • Valor®, 5ml

Today we will focus on Harmony™. Harmony can be used for energy and balance.  It’s a blend of pure essential oils that contains scents to provide an uplifting aromatic experience and is EarthKosher certified. I like to diffuse Harmony especially during meditation time or when I just need a little harmony in my life. Meditation is a big component in the grief journey. I use meditation prior to writing in my journal. It allows me to collect my thoughts before I write.

When you’re feeling down or need to refocus your thoughts bringing essential oils like Harmony into your daily or weekly routine can be an effective way to enhance your day. Creating a sense of balance can be vital to bringing the type of atmosphere that can be helpful to you as you navigate all of the emotions that come from experiencing grief.

How to use Harmony:

Harmony can be applied topically or diffused several times daily. Dilution with a carrier oil is not required; however if you have sensitive skin, you may dilute with a carrier oil like sunflower oil. Just make sure it’s organic. Young Living does carry carrier oils; however there are many available in local health and wellness stores in your area.

Topical Application: Apply 2-4 drops directly to desired area. Dilution not required, except for the most sensitive skin. Use as needed.

Aromatic Application: Diffuse up to 1 hour 3 times daily.

Caution: Keep out of reach of children. For external use only. Keep away from eyes and mucous membranes. If you are pregnant, nursing, taking medication, or have a medical condition, consult a health professional prior to use. Avoid direct sunlight or UV rays for up to 12 hours after applying product.


Santalum album (Sacred Sandalwood)† wood oil, Lavandula angustifolia† (Lavender) oil, Cananga odorata† (Ylang ylang) flower oil, Boswellia carterii† (Frankincense) oil, Citrus aurantium dulcis (Orange) peel oil, Angelica archangelica† (Angelica) root oil, Pelargonium graveolens† (Geranium) flower oil, Hyssopus officinalis† (Hyssop) leaf oil, Salvia Lavandulaefolia† (Spanish sage) leaf oil, Picea mariana† (Black spruce) leaf oil, Coriandrum sativum† (Coriander) seed oil, Citrus aurantium bergamia† (Bergamot) peel oil (Furocoumarin-free), Citrus limon† (Lemon) peel oil, Jasminum officinale** (Jasmine) oil, Anthemis nobilis† (Roman chamomile) flower oil, Cymbopogon martini† (Palmarosa) oil, Rosa damascena† (Rose) flower oil 

† 100% pure, therapeutic-grade essential oil

**100% pure absolute

The Battleground of Grief

The battleground of grief can be internal or external. Internally all I could visualize was how I saw all of the things I could not control just strewn all around me. A wild fight where everything was on the line. Everything was left on the ground. The only thing left was a casualty of war. A prisoner of war. Me.

The powerful surge of sorrow and grief and the magnitude of the empty space that resides in my heart and in my life since Brittany died is real. It’s not some story that happened to me. As October 13th approaches, I am reminded my journey is far from over. Some days it feels like I just started this journey yesterday and other days it seems like a lifetime ago.

Externally, it can look like how your relationships with your family, your friends, perhaps your marriage or your loved ones. Some relationships struggle after loss but make it through and unfortunately some don’t. The grief is so powerful. It takes ahold of you and plows through you like a wrecking ball. And the unfortunate truth is those who love you feel the brunt of grief too. They grieve who you used to be or who they want you to be.

Grief, it changes you and the people you connect with. Even 12 years later, my grief, my loss impacts those close to me. My close relationships suffer. And although I try to ignore it or “fix” it; grief has no timeline.  I find that I keep to myself, my thoughts and feelings because seriously who wants to hear over and over again how badly I miss my daughter? Who wants to be around me during these months when I’m distant and moody? I don’t even want to talk about it. It opens up old wounds. The scars of a battle I lost; one that I didn’t even know how to fight. But each year I try and I’ll keep working at it. I’m a warrior.

Everyone’s response to grief is different; their ability to manage the battle internally and externally can be vastly different from your own experience. Because everyone is different; the help you seek or the therapy you receive may look different too. That’s ok. Just get help. Talk. Write. Mentor.

Until Next Time,


Vision Board – 101

Hello Everyone,

I’ve included a powerpoint for you to review and it includes an audio message from me on what to expect while you prepare to create your very own vision board.

Please review and should you have any questions or would like to make a comment, please do that below and I’ll reply as soon as I can.

I’m looking forward to this project and I hope you find it an enjoyable process.

Vision Board – 101

PDF – no audio vision-board-101

Until next time,



Vision Board. Phase One

A while back I mentioned that I wanted to take this blog is a slightly different direction. There is so much light, pain, sorrow and joy baked into the words that rolled into stories to dilute it down. Grief will always be a part of who I am. My daughter will always be a part of who I am. Where we go from here is to model for you how I got where I am today.

Next week I will be posting how to create your vision board. There is a little homework that needs to be done before next week. There are several tools and prep work which have been listed below. If you are interested in creating your own vision board, here are the steps to completed phase one:

Obtain once piece of poster board (black or white)

Glue Sticks



Magazine/newspaper clippings (the most time consuming): These will be used to create your vision board. As you browse through magazines or newspapers, focus on words or sentences that resonate with you. Let your creativity flow. Don’t over think it. Go with whatever moves you. Clip them out and keep them handy for the post next week.

I challenge you to think about your vision board as a place to create a goal of something you want to achieve and from there we can begin to build the interventions (clippings) that you will want to follow to complete your goal.

Again, don’t overthink it. When I first started building vision boards, they were superficial and somewhat materialistic. Now I’ve moved into more depth and soul searching. Don’t get me wrong there are plenty of material things on my current vision board.

Disclaimer: there is NO wrong way to do this. Just follow your heart and be creative – and most of all – HAVE fun!!

Until next time,


Unexpected Emotions

So, this past weekend I saw Mamma Mia 2 and found myself surprised at how emotional I became towards the end of the movie. For those of you who have not seen it, I’ll try not to give too much away as to not spoil it for you.

In a few of the scenes they were addressing how loss impacted a few of the characters and all the emotions bubbled up to the top quickly and took me by surprise. I found I could not contain my tears and they spilled from my eyes. I had a huge headache from holding it all in. Initially I thought it was odd and was a little annoyed that I couldn’t make it through a movie without losing it.

Then I realized that our past experiences direct our responses to similar “like” experiences, even when the experiences weren’t directly related to us. For example, in the movie the loss of a mother evoked a moment of sadness for me because I too have lost a mom. I was struck by how the daughter’s emotion, the husband’s emotion and the friend’s emotion – all resonated with me. I saw it from all their perspectives. So much pain rolled up into a ball of sadness and tears.

I struggled to keep it together and I wasn’t alone. You could hear the many sniffles throughout the theater, but I focused on my own so that I did not just break out into a full out ugly cry. I thought so many of us truly understood how those characters were feeling and how the actors wanted you, the audience to feel. They did a great job and for me, they were very successful.

I realized that I still, as a daughter, miss my mom every day. While she has been gone for almost 30 years, a girl still needs her mama. I also cried because the character was about to have a baby and something I’d always prayed and hoped for my own daughter, but that was not to happen. We always understood that she would not have a normal life – or as normal as we’d dreamed of. Her death finalized and put to rest any hopes and dreams I had for her. I’ve spent a great deal of time mourning the loss of something. It’s not always a person. Sometimes it’s a dream; a hope; a plan.

The movie was great and in many ways, better than the original so I highly recommend it. Take tissues if you have lost someone or something because it will tug at your broken heart just a little.

Until next time,



One of the ways I have transitioned my grief is through the process of being more mindful about my thoughts. Earlier on my journey I would let grief swallow me up to where I’d end up in a puddle of tears and choking on my grief. I was a mess. All of that crying and sorrow kept me from seeing the light right in front of me. It was like a shroud had engulfed me and I couldn’t see my way out it.

When I began to spend time writing my thoughts down in my journal I found I could sort them out better. From there I found I was able to see my grief, my thoughts, my feelings differently. Being mindful about why I felt a certain way created a space to redirect my grief. To really channel it into something that could be a vessel of change. Sometimes I felt like I was wrestling some of those thoughts and feelings to the ground because they were so big and painful. The beautiful gift that can come from mindfulness is the shift in focus from the pain of my daughter’s death to honor of my daughter’s life. That was profound and life-changing for me. It can be for you too.

If you haven’t ever considered writing in a journal, I’d encourage you to do so. Don’t be afraid of writing perfectly or even spelling correctly. Focus on pouring out the words from your heart and onto the paper. It was hard in the beginning but as I wrote I began to see something unfold before my eyes. I began to feel peace and it allowed light to crack through my broken heart. Mindfulness of your thoughts and feelings through writing can be therapeutic beyond measure.

Creating mindfulness is work. You need space – a comfortable place to land and be free to express your thoughts and feelings. If you don’t have a defined space to do that in your home, you can even take a few items that create a sense of calm in your spirt like – candles, scents, a journal/pen and lighting etc. Creating the ambiance that allows you to stop and take a nice deep breath and focus on the positive energy that is buried deep within you. Yes it’s still there.

Mindfulness is about space, breathing and letting the negative thoughts clear and allow the positive thoughts to remain. When you begin to drift back into the negative, just take a deep breath and refocus on the positive. Focus on something good. Consistency is the key with this practice. Sometimes you may need it daily and sometimes just a few times a week. Regular practice and you will grow into your mindfulness and more positive thoughts will begin to overcome the negative or sad ones.

Additionally, I incorporated the use of essential oils into my mindfulness routine now and love to use various oils and blends to create that special blend that compliments my mindfulness routine. When I feel that its time for me to take a step back and find some time to get quiet – essential oils produce that peaceful calming environment necessary to just be still. I chose Young Living Essential Oils because of the quality and care they take to ensure the safety of their customers. There are many oils to choose from, but Valor, Hope, Gratitude and Peace & Calming are ones I use often in my diffusers at home and when I travel.

As I said in a previous post, the focus of this blog will shift from acknowledging and validating loss to focus the mind and body allowing the pursuit of healing and finding a positive way to channel grief. To shift your focus and your energy into something that honors your loved one who has passed on. Then you’ll begin to see positive changes in how you process your grief. Channeling it into something that will honor your child or loved one is a beautiful thing. I spent many years in the low space and it took a lot of energy to move from that space to where I am now – but I’m here to say it can be done.

None of this will ever replace or forget our loved ones, but rather it creates the beautiful space to honor and celebrate who they were to us and to the world.

Here’s to your mindfulness!



I am not a professional mental health counselor and recommend that you seek out professional counseling to help manage your grief.

New Beginnings


Over the past 11 years I’ve written about the pain and anguish of losing a child. I’ve focused on supporting the concept that when we come together and support each other through our grief, that we are not alone on this journey. We are a community of support for each other and I never want to lose that focus. That said, I want to shift the focus of this blog to be more of how do we support the “new normal” that we find ourselves navigating now.

Over the next few months, the posts are going to incorporate the recognition and validation of loss and measures to honor ourselves and our loved ones through specific changes that can direct your actions and thoughts into a new way of thinking.

Specific topics will cover (in no specific order):

  • Vision Boards
  • Life-style changes
  • Meditation
  • Journaling
  • Health and Wellness

If there are any topics you’d like to see here, please comment below. I hope to have the first post completed by this weekend. There will be a series and maybe, just maybe you’ll see videos too!

I’m excited for this next phase of “Mysoulspeaks” and feel strongly through prayer and much meditation that this is the next step in not only my healing but many of you that follow my blog.

Until next time,