Yesterday I didn’t cry for the first time since Brittany died. I wonder if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. I stayed very busy and then went to the football game where she went to school.

Today – I’m more weepy and somewhat mad. So I must be going back and forth between the stages of grief. I know God is in control – but it’s so hard. The hardest thing I’ve ever had to endure and I’ve had to endure some rough stuff over the years.

This will either make me or break me. I’m trying very hard. So keep me in your prayers – as I will need them all and more.

until later

mal