I wrote this poem in May of 2007, approximately 6 months after my daughter’s death. On this Mother’s Day it continues to be relevant to my feelings today.

Motherhood in Grief

Where has my girl gone?
For once she was in her room,
laughing on the phone, and
now she is gone.

Where has my girl gone?
For once she was dancing and singing,
loving and laughing at me,
now she is gone.

Where has my girl gone?
For she once needed me,
to fix her hair, pick out her clothes,
show her the way, now she is gone.

Where has my girl gone?
The one that I care for
24-7, 365 days, for 17-3/4 years.
The one who cared so much,
for others, but got so little in return.
Now she is gone.

Where has my girl gone?
Who showed us how to love,
unconditional without barriers.
Who wished to be normal, like
her friends, to be loved.
Now she is gone.

Where has my girl gone?

You see my friends,
she is in the arms of God.
Where she needs to be, she
deserves to be, where she
no longer is subject to the
cruelties of this world.

It is a blessing on this Mother’s Day that I can smile and know she is in the presence of our God who is now her protector, her guide, her love, her life, her everything. She is celebrating her life and before God and as her mom – I’m happy and satisfied she is safe.

As a mother, what more could you want for your child. It’s the ultimate wish. Everything else is selfish!

God Bless All Of You Mothers!

It’s the greatest job in the world and the hardest to give away! I cast mine on the Lord and I can’t wait to see her again!

Until next time,

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