I am reposting this Mother’s Day note because this is the season of grief that I am in now….. Mother’s day to me has become the worst holiday of them all. It has become meaningless in the face of tragic loss and a fragmented life left in it’s wake. But once it passes – I will again see the beauty of life and all it has to offer….but until then I cry, I weep, I mourn and I do it without shame or without regret for it is my journey to healing…
When you lose your only child, and your mother, and your grandmother – Mother’s Day becomes a day you dread more than any other. Over the past three years since my daughter’s death, I have come to dread this day over her “angel” day, her birthday or any other holiday.
The one thing I know for sure is I am so very grateful it comes on the heels of Easter. It is because of the Resurrection of Jesus that I can continue to breathe and move forward without my baby. My hope is in the Lord and that I will see her again very soon. What a joyous occasion that will be.
I know that for some unbelievers this concept can be a stretch. But just let me say that I would rather believe in God and have his love and compassion keep me filled with love and hope than to not believe and feel my life had been wasted. My hope in the Resurrection rests firmly on my beliefs that Brittany is with God now and one day I will be reunited with her. That is how I get through each and every day.
Does that make going through the remainder of my days filled with emptiness any easier. Sometimes. But I can’t imagine living a life without hope. Can you?
Blessings
M
Unimaginable Grief Unexpected Blessings 
I cannot imagine going through my own grief without believing! God Bless you!
Before I start, I am truly sorry for not reading your posts sooner and will read each of the ones I can to help. Hope you remember me. I am sorry that you had to burden the losses of those close to you. But answer me this. Last time I posted, you said your daughter died ill, right? Which would you rather have? A forever ill daughter here on earth that is tortured by her illness, or a daughter who waits cheerfully for you in the saftey of God’s arms? Though deaths may be hard to take, (I know this through my fallen grandmother) it is better to give them no pain with God then constant pain here on earth to be with you. No insults implied, and this isn’t directed at you, but it is selfish to wish for past loved ones to return to you if they are fallen. They no longer worry on anything but you. To non-believers, they are truly missing out on the only chance of survival in future events, but you know(I know you do) that they are in a better place, and the only thing you need to worry for them about, is what to do when you join them. I am here for you once again for guidance and brotherly love. May God Truly Bless You!
~Tristan